Getting upset about things that happened a year ago and people who have been out of my life for even longer is so stupid but I have nothing to take my mind off it for long enough and today has quickly gone from good to bad and sad. Need to distract myself.
Today has been so chilled and nice despite being shattered as soon as I woke up. I’ve read a lot and cleared a load more stuff out so there’s less mess again so my head is a little less messy too. Would be in such a calm mood but am fed up of feeling like people’s last resort and making so much effort to have little to none put back in. It’s complete bullshit and if it were anyone else I’d be telling them to fuck it and give in, but I hate doing that. Would be nice to feel as though I was wanted for a change. I know my friends care but they do fuck all to show it sometimes. Going to read some more and find some fun foods to make and maybe start making something this evening if I manage to wake up a bit and forget about everyone.